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<rss version="2.0"><channel><description>A blog about some bullshit</description><title>Hotel Hellafornia</title><generator>Tumblr (3.0; @killingyourselftolive)</generator><link>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/</link><item><title>attn: Pennsylvania area GCH fans</title><description>&lt;p&gt;Polar Shift, Tyler and Eric of @&lt;a href="http://twitter.com/gymclassheroes"&gt;gymclassheroes&lt;/a&gt;metal band will be playing our first show at The Note in West Chester, PA September 15th tell your friends and come out and support, I never thought time would allow for us to do this but it’s definetly happening, possibility of a NY and NJ show as well get stoked and check out the teaser below.&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/164907304</link><guid>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/164907304</guid><pubDate>Mon, 17 Aug 2009 10:34:43 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>Here’s a little taste of the Polar Shift record, love to...</title><description>&lt;embed type="application/x-shockwave-flash" src="http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/swf/audio_player.swf?audio_file=http://www.tumblr.com/audio_file/157056210/3zLuFCdUJqssxagawfgEwLZW&amp;color=FFFFFF" height="27" width="207" quality="best"&gt;&lt;/embed&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;Here’s a little taste of the Polar Shift record, love to hear what you guys think, for fans of Black Sabbath, Queens Of The Stone Age etc. We will be playing shows hopefully in late August if me and Eric are off tour with GCH, enjoy and let me know what you think.&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/157056210</link><guid>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/157056210</guid><pubDate>Thu, 06 Aug 2009 04:59:36 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>Why Can't I Regulate My Mind?</title><description>&lt;p&gt;Well fuck….hello again tumblr it has been quite a while, I thought I was done posting here but I suppose I feel the need again, the 100 or so charachters that twitter leaves me to express whats going on in my life are rarely enough, and if I were to “tweet” all this I would start getting into bizarre John Maher territory (dude is obsessed with the tweets)anyhow…Things have been pretty cool, I started a new side project band with a couple of dudes you might know:&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Eric Roberts of Gym Class heroes&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Steve Curtis formerly of The Color Fred/Ley Royal Scam&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Mike Cummings of Backwoods Payback&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Our new project is called Polar Shift and it will be available to everyone very soon, it is a monster of a record that we are all very proud of recorded in my apartment, it is uncompromising mountain metal full of sweet ass riffs and burly beard sounding vocals.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;In other news i’m finding lately that life is very uncertain, things aren’t always what they seem and people aren’t always what you think they are and it is bothering the shit out of me, I feel as though i’m living in constant fear of a number of different things and i’m fucking sick of it. I’m sick of feeling 100% unrelatable to people outside of my touring brethern. The only person in life you can count on is yourself and I really do plan to take that and run with it, I realize this all sounds like some cliche bullshit but right now it rings more truthfully than it ever has, i’m sick of being afraid to speak up, I have made inconvenience a neccessity in my life for far to long and hopefully I can pull my shit together and get life in order. I will now stop with the self pity and get on with the living but I think i’m going to be a frequent blogger again, just typing these little bits has made me feel a bit better about everything. so keep on following and thanks for your support.&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/141214475</link><guid>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/141214475</guid><pubDate>Tue, 14 Jul 2009 00:10:10 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>This is a pop song my friend Tom Martin wrote and I produced,...</title><description>&lt;embed type="application/x-shockwave-flash" src="http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/swf/audio_player.swf?audio_file=http://www.tumblr.com/audio_file/111624689/3zLuFCdUJnszjxz5ifNSsQ4d&amp;color=FFFFFF" height="27" width="207" quality="best"&gt;&lt;/embed&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;This is a pop song my friend Tom Martin wrote and I produced, and by produced I mean played all the instruments and sang….we are hoping to sell it so some young lady pop sensation for bazillions but who knows….if for nothing more than its really funny hearing me try to sing a sexy pop number written fah a gurl!! enjoy its called “Touch It” or at least I think thats what its called Tom never gave me an official title.&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/111624689</link><guid>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/111624689</guid><pubDate>Fri, 22 May 2009 18:06:03 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>these are the breaks....and the history</title><description>&lt;p&gt;In life we generally try to make decisions and do things that we think are right….in some cases they end up being wrong. It is a late night at home 4:27am to be exact. I’m lying in my bed reflecting on my involvement/career in music from the very beggining all the way from the The Blue Flames (my band in the 5th grade) up to my current residency in GCH. I love music more than anything in the entire world, in almost every other aspect of life i’am a complete and utter fuck up, I figured I might as well run through a brief history of my musical career on here mostly for my own enjoyment but also for anyone who might be interested in where exactly I came from and possibly for the enjoyment of people who were a part of the PA music scene in the late 90’s up until now.&lt;/p&gt;

&lt;p&gt;I got really into playing music in the 5th grade, I was super into guitar and it was the first time in my life that I was really discovering bands and music on my own, I liked your standard stuff like Green Day, Metallica, NIN and White Zombie but at the same time I got into some of the more out there stuff especially for a fifth grader, stuff like The Pixies, L7, Fugazi and Mudhoney it was a weird time, I formed a friendship with a kid who ended up living only about 15 minutes walking distance from my house named John Walton, John was the first person I ever played music with I believe our first incarnation was me playing a bass through a gorilla practice amp and him banging on a snare drum with a mini cymbal attached, however eventually for whatever reason our parents believed in us and I got my self a hot pink ibanez RG with a floyd rose and a sweet mullet while john aquired an old blue sparkle ludwig kit and sported a crazy curly fro of long hair and soon we were learning bad various covers of green day songs, I remember really wanting to learn how to play cult of personality but just not being good enough to pull it off, eventually we found a bass player in the form of a crazy little bastard named Eric Klatzbaugh, he was fortunate enough during our tenure to aquire a sparkle read BC rich warlock bass with the gold hardware which at this point in time was the holy grail of guitars as far as we were concerned, we only ever played one show and it was at our elementary school D.A.R.E culmination we wrote our own lyrics to the Green Day classic “When I Come Around” about being drug free….over the next 2 years or so I played with John and different bassists and other guitar players in several different not real bands,&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;in the 5th grade we were also all friends with a dude named Nate Mcafee who at the time didn’t really play anything. By the time I got to middle school Nate, after a stint playing the drums decided that he would play bass and his older brother Bill would play guitar, John had formed a new band called The Hessian Crew so we kinda went our seperate ways musically at that point, we got a drummer named Ken and our evil black metal band Ravenstorm was born, yes somewhere there are pictures of me in full eye make up and leather pants and spikey bracelets.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Ravenstorm were short lived we made two cassette tape releases (yes these were somehow still viable at this point) and after a good amount of fucking around and not doing much of anything (i’m trying to recall if we ever really played any shows) we disbanded and I formed an awful mess of a band called White Rhino with my friend Jason who lived on my street and a couple of dudes he knew, our music was bad punk fused wiith bad metal and slap bass parts ughhhh. For whatever reason though, people liked us we played a bunch of shows with John’s band The Hessian Crew, there was always an unspoken rivalry between us and our respective bands that lasted for quite a few years, we played huge shows and even won our high school talent show, not much of an effort you might think but I remember that was one of the only times in high school where for like a week nobody gave me shit about being the way I was, all the Jock assholes minds were blown because all the cheerleaders wanted to hang out with us and they just wanted to be like us, but that wore off soon enough, I look back on that fondly as the only time in school I ever got any respect for being a musician. White Rhino was plagued with issues from the very beggining, lots of ego’s, lack of direction and I got tired of it, I had been talking with Nate about starting something up again and it seemed like a great idea, White Rhino had a keyboardist named Adam who was still learning but was a great guy to be around and I was super into snagging him up and collaborating with Nate and Ken on a new band, we were all really into extreme prog metal stuff at the time so we formed a band called Monarch.&lt;/p&gt;

&lt;p&gt;This was the first awesome band any of us had ever had, we could shred and we knew it and at times we were almost dicks about it, we didn’t play a lot of shows but when we did the kids playing Blink covers got their faces riped off by epic metal riffs shredding solos and time signature changes it was pretty glorious, we stayed together for a while but we were all getting older and our drummer was getting ready to go off to college (I feel like there are some years I missed but its hard to say). After this band I kinda bummed around for a long time, I had a short lived acoustic thing going on and was always trying to get something together but it was harder now that I was out of school, people had jobs and bills to pay. Through working with my friend Myke at his studio I found my way into a band called The Red Tops, these were older guys playing hardcore like stuff in the early vein (Minor Threat, Bad Brains). This was the band that really introduced me to playing out we started playing bars as well as firehall shows and we even got to do a few small tours I remember being terrified driving a van with the trailer attached through a snowstorm into Cleveland, Oh the bands so called home away from home. We made an awesome record called Left For Dead and put it out on Universal Warning records and played an ass ton of shows all over the place. Eventually I grew somewhat bored of playing hardcore and wanted to do something a little more focused, or more so something that had the chance of going somewhere other than the bar or the basement, I got to know the legendary Tom Martin of West Chester, He had been in many various bands over the years and posessed the keen ability to write super sugary catchy pop tunes with a punk rock sensibility, he was also the soundman at my favorite watering hole and I believe sometimes according to legend would request to be paid in chicken fingers, he was/is also totally insane and brilliant.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Tom was working with this chick Teeter on this poppy project called Ley Royal Scam so he wanted to put together a live band for studio work and doing shows/showcases and things like that. I left The Redtops for good and joined Tom’s band. Almost immediately response for the band was off the charts, one of our first shows ever was playing to about 2000 kids with Taking Back Sunday and Circa Survive (think it was also their first show) at West Chester University. It was a disaster, this was the beggining of the ultimate power struggle for band domination between Teeter and Tom, Teeter housed about a bottle of captain morgan before we played and the entire time Tom is just yelling at her onstage and at one point kicks a drink out of her hand, people booed us and the show was rather unsuccessful but I had a good time, this was the first time we ever had a legit dressing room with drinks and PB&amp;J and other stuff we were stoked either way. The hype behind the band was building rapidly despite our inability to hold it together in any sort of live situation we played a CMJ showcase and other various such things, around this point I really began to hate Tom who was running the band like some kind of musical hitler charachter so I sided with Teeter and eventually after several great shows a few record offers and endless amounts of help and support from famous friends in the business and others the whole thing fell through by the time we played our last show at a CMJ showcase in NYC we all basically hated each other and were sick of it. Over the next couple years Tom and I worked together on and off we’ve always had a very hot and cold kind of working relationship but i’ve gotten a little older and Tom has cooled out a little bit so i’m happy to say we are now friends and working together again when we can, hopefully this time it will stick because fighting with that dude is exhausting.&lt;/p&gt;

&lt;p&gt;After this I decided to return to working on my solo shit, around this time I split up with my girlfriend of about 4 years and started writing really bad contrived dashboard confessional type bullshit for a solo record I was making with my buddy Arik, we got halfway through the record and I decided I couldn’t do it and bailed on it all together, I didn’t have the balls to make a solo record yet. for a while I just drank and bummed around and was kinda miserable, I was delivering car parts making $200 a week and trying to pay rent, car insurance, gas and still be able to drink and have some fun, it was fucking hard and for a short time when I was drinking pretty heavy I was going to mcdonalds or chic fil a and paying in quarters…(note: i’m not looking for any sympathy or trying to seem cool i’m just saying I was poor and as hard as it was at times looking back I was having a lot of fun and was too stupid to realize it at the time.) eventually Arik played me some demos of a songwriter he’d worked with a few months back  named Chris Aspite, I heard the stuff and fell in love with it it was the rawness of Iggy and the Stooges mixed with the bleakness of Joy Division, it was really angry young man music but with a sort of poetic beauty to it. I met up with Chris at a bar in West Chester to discuss the prospect of turning his thing into a band and eventually we got it going and people were really into it, it was very different Chris was an incredible vocalist and the band was really good, Chris had grown up in West Chester with Bam Margera so it wasn’t long before Bam got involved and tryed to help us out much against the wishes of Chris, we eventually ended up practicing in Bam’s garage and it was super nice, we played a bunch of huge huge shows with CKY and started to attract a bit of attention, Chris is a stand up guy but after a while things got difficult and we were kinda hanging on by a thread. a few days after things started falling apart I was at work delivering some mufflers to black forest auto when I got a call on my cell phone, it was a woman named Bonnie saying that she worked with a band called Gym Class Heroes and they were looking for a keyboardist she had been a friend of Teeters and had heard about me through her, I told her i was interested, I flew up to Geneva to rehearse with the dudes and a day later I quit Chris’s band (we were called Venemous btw) and we flew to the UK for a couple of shows, I got the worst food poisoning of my entire life and was sick for days but I powered through and it paid off. That pretty much brings us up to today.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;The music business is crazy, and music has taken me to tons of places and put me in many varying degrees of situations, people ask me for advice sometimes wanting to know how they can get their foot in the door and I haven’t the faintest what to tell them, as cliche as it sounds I knew the right people and was in the right place at the right time and I work my ass off to make sure I can be the best at what I do.&lt;/p&gt;

&lt;p&gt;it is 5:52am and I should probably go to sleep if thats even possible, thanks for reading.&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/111395713</link><guid>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/111395713</guid><pubDate>Fri, 22 May 2009 05:53:50 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>this is a new demo I did, its my first time writing at the piano...</title><description>&lt;embed type="application/x-shockwave-flash" src="http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/swf/audio_player.swf?audio_file=http://www.tumblr.com/audio_file/102901331/3zLuFCdUJn138zbeLNgqIX2s&amp;color=FFFFFF" height="27" width="207" quality="best"&gt;&lt;/embed&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;this is a new demo I did, its my first time writing at the piano in quite I while….i’m pretty pleased with how it turned out. Enjoy&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/102901331</link><guid>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/102901331</guid><pubDate>Sun, 03 May 2009 05:31:57 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>Hey there, dirty dogs! Did I miss the song? Sing it again,...</title><description>&lt;img src="http://2.media.tumblr.com/3zLuFCdUJn132cy5cbPVU6oXo1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;Hey there, dirty dogs! Did I miss the song? Sing it again, rookie biotch!!&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/102900422</link><guid>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/102900422</guid><pubDate>Sun, 03 May 2009 05:26:48 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>Summer Plans</title><description>&lt;p&gt;This summer is going to fucking kill! Its gonna be nice to be off and BBQ and drink beers and play loud guitars i’m hoping at some point in life that this is all I will have to do to survive….but seeing as all my money is converted into guitars/pedals/amps thats probably a long ways off, goddamn i’m stoked to go home! be on the look out for some solo showsMay 9th Amp Show (its in NJ but its gonna be to awesome to miss)&lt;/p&gt;

&lt;p&gt;June 3rd Isis, Pelican, Tombs (Sludge and riffz and riffz and riffz)&lt;/p&gt;

&lt;p&gt;June 15th BIRTHDAY BASH EXTRAVAGANZA! (Still working out the details)&lt;/p&gt;

&lt;p&gt;Saturday May 16th Growing/Thrones (so stoked for this missed their philly joint a while back  but hopefully i’ll get to make this one….were doing a show at the store that night but I don’t know whats going on with that at the moment)&lt;/p&gt;

&lt;p&gt;Guitar Show July 12th and 13th: The trick to this one is to go and enjoy without blwoing my life savings, I did well last year but thats only because I bought a martin the day before.&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/102899301</link><guid>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/102899301</guid><pubDate>Sun, 03 May 2009 05:20:03 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>Summer Plans</title><description>&lt;p&gt;May 9th amp show&lt;/p&gt;

&lt;p&gt;June 3rd Isis, Pelican, Tombs&lt;/p&gt;

&lt;p&gt;June 15th BIRTHDAY BASH EXTRAVAGANZA!&lt;/p&gt;

&lt;p&gt;Saturday May 16th Growing/Thrones&lt;/p&gt;

&lt;p&gt;Guitar Show July 12th and 13th&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/102898749</link><guid>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/102898749</guid><pubDate>Sun, 03 May 2009 05:15:13 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>one of my new pedal designs, lots of people are gonna want this...</title><description>&lt;img src="http://20.media.tumblr.com/3zLuFCdUJn0tezesZZ0hTs8vo1_500.gif"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;one of my new pedal designs, lots of people are gonna want this one.&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/102845489</link><guid>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/102845489</guid><pubDate>Sun, 03 May 2009 00:56:41 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>Weedeater</title><description>&lt;p&gt;Are like Motorhead dipped in a swamp.&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/101367500</link><guid>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/101367500</guid><pubDate>Wed, 29 Apr 2009 02:49:05 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>Pursel VS. The Phoenixville Business Association</title><description>&lt;p&gt;&lt;br/&gt;I recently recieved this email from Jane Tucker, she is the owner of a little coffee shop where I live and head of the Phoenixville Business Association, apparently she found fault with a few of the things I had to say in one of my posts on &lt;a href="http://www.phoenixvillenews.com"&gt;www.phoenixvillenews.com&lt;/a&gt; about how things are not going well in our town. In Phoenixville everyone likes to pretend the town is great even though almost everything is doing rather poorly. enjoy! I sure did.&lt;br/&gt;I had the occasion to read a posting by someone claiming to be a co-owner of creep records.  I can’t assume it was you.  (I have posted the blog below).  I wanted to address a few things that were brought up in this blog:&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;Response: This was indeed not Arik it was me, Tyler Pursel i’m a touring musician who is part owner of the company&lt;br/&gt;First, I would like to point out that your business has never taken advantage of the marketing, promotional and networking abilities provided to you through PABA. We have sent out emails and posters for you to be involved with numerous events, including a networking event that would have given you exposure to about 70 other business persons in the area who might be interested in doing some co-marketing events with you or in visiting your shop. In fact, you haven’t event taken advantage of the ones presented by myself through Steel City Coffee House.  I offered to let you folks have name sponsorship of a night at Steel City, all you had to do is pick the night and bring the bands in.  We could name it as a Creep Records presents.  I brought this idea to you long before you started going over to Chaplin’s and having shows there.  It would make much more business sense for you to have used a music venue right down the block from you to market your store, you could have an after concert party at your place, which would bring people down from Steel City to your brick and morter site for sales.  Instead, you chose Chaplin’s which is much further from your store.  &lt;br/&gt;RESPONSE: Chaplins has a large stage and high quality PA, if we were going to do a show at steel city we might as well do one in our own store, were not really booking lots of acoustic acts our bands are more commonly than not LOUD and run around like maniacs with their instruments at times, a far cry from the standard fare at your venue (that is not an insult i’m just saying).&lt;br/&gt;You had expressed interest in selling Flower Power tickets, but then when I gave you some to sell, you didn’t sell any, in fact, you couldn’t even find them when I came to collect them.  As a record store, I would have thought that you would be intersted in promoting a great concert like that.  &lt;br/&gt;RESPONSE: I can’t really comment on this because I wasn’t around, I apologize if we didn’t sell any tickets.&lt;br/&gt;Secondly, the blogger writes “&lt;i&gt;I don’t subscribe to the weird backwards commradery that all the other business owners seem to have&lt;/i&gt;”.  I’m not sure what that statement means, but if it is &lt;i&gt;weird&lt;/i&gt; and &lt;i&gt;backwards&lt;/i&gt; to try to support each other and to attempt to group market ourselves, then so be it.  It seems to help, especially during these tough financial times to take advantage of group marketing and events.&lt;br/&gt;RESPONSE: I don’t think it is weird and backwards to support each other, I think it is weird to walk around high and mighty about the business situation in Phoenixville, acting like everything is fantastic and while I have not had a good amount of contact with you I can say a number of the business owners do exactly that, I don’t feel as though businesses genuinely want to help other businesses, its like people seem to think that if they refrain from talking poorly about the town that all this shit is just going to fix itself.&lt;br/&gt;Thirdly, &lt;i&gt;“Next time I will be sure to inspect the area i do business in a little more carefully.”  &lt;/i&gt;One of the main tenents of a good business plan is to thoroughly research the area before you invest in a business.  You should have had a business plan, including a market analysis.  Had you done this, you would have found out that there is next to no daytime business in Phoenixville and that extraordinary efforts would have to be taken to draw daytime business to Phoenixville.  A market analysis would also have discovered that even the evening business that we have tends to generate around food and alcoholic beverages (currently) and that your “target” audience, 14-24 ish (I am guessing as I do not know the depth of the products you sell) does not regularly visit Phoenixville to make such purchases.It’s not enough just to set up a business and hope that people come in.  You need to know your audience and target them.&lt;br/&gt;RESPONSE: Well thanks for the sound business advice, so seeing as you researched the area and have obviously done a market analysis and come up with the conclusions you have…why in the hell did you ever open a coffee shop, I would think the no daytime traffic would be an instant turn off but thats me, I don’t feel as though there is a lack of youthful traffic if anything there is a lack of overall traffic, and furthermore the most crowded i’ve ever seen your place is on open mic night when it is in fact filled with people in our demographic aside from a few of your higher profile shows. This is exactly the type of behavior I define as backwards in my previous posting, people in relatively the same situation coming in and trying to tell other people how to run their shit when they are basically in the same boat, correct me if i’m wrong but isn’t your business for sale? if its doing well why would you want to get rid of it? despite the poor situation of Phoenixville business overall we have not yet resorted to trying to sell our business. The first step of healing in any program is admitting that there is a real serious problem and getting angry/upset/heated whatever you wanna call it and say something about it, put your feelings out in the air in, if everyone admits there as frustrated as i’am maybe the people that have somewhat of a capacity to make a difference (of which there are very few anyway) will actually listen, maybe the rent will go down, maybe changes will be made that lead towards more successful businesses for everyone&lt;br/&gt;Fourth, - since you did set up and started business irregardless of the lack of daytime traffic and youthful traffic, &lt;br/&gt;RESPONSE: Just as you did, in fact you did so in a time when it was way way less than it is now.&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;you still have options.  When we first started Steel City Coffee House, our original plan was to start a coffeehouse/ music venue/ bookstore.  A month into starting the business we realized that we didn’t have enough sqare footage to do all three.  So, we canned the idea of the bookstore as it required the most square footage and had the least profit margin- even though it was something that I really wanted.  We then focused on coffee and local music.  Luckily for us, the music side of the business really blossomed and the food side did as well for a while (less now that there are numerous choices with the availability of alcohol).  During the years, we have had to make alot of changes to keep pace with the changes that are going on in Phoenixville.  Sometimes you have to be flexible.  When Barry Cassidy started shutting down the 200 block for First Fridays and placing a band right outside our door when we were having concerts inside, we had to evolve.  We had to stop having concerts on First Fridays to allow the town to grow and take advantage of the foot traffic on First Fridays for the coffee and food side of the business while losing a night of concert traffic.  &lt;br/&gt;RESPONSE: I’ve got no problems with first fridays, our store as i’m sure every other store do incredibly well, if every friday were like first friday things would be good but I realize that is somewhat of an unreasonable request.  What changes have you really made that made a difference? i’d love to know. &lt;br/&gt;Perhaps if you changed your business scheme a little to include a more diversity in your music selections and create an atmosphere where people feel welcomed in (despite their musical preferences) then you would get some more adult business.&lt;br/&gt;RESPONSE: While we don’t really get a lot of customers these days, our customer base is extremely varied, I’ll sell Slayer CD’s to 14 year old kids while i’m selling Old Neil Young records to their Dad and Joni Mitchell CD’s for mom, maybe there is a little elitism when people come in but 1. To a degree that comes with the territory and i’m sick of  random old people who have no intention of ever buying anything or supporting us in anyway coming in and asking 30 million questions about who painted our back wall or how long we’ve been here, as well as people who only come in to try and get us to spend money to advertise in their stupid newspaper or magazine which has a circulation of like 20 people, or whatever weird crackhead has nothing better to do or wants to wash the windows, honestly I would say we are a pretty welcoming store, we let all those people come in and give us shit all day even though they have no intention of buying anything. &lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;Again, I am not familiar with all that you sell, but if it is what you list online, I don’t think that the average American is familiar with those bands and probably would not purchase their music.  &lt;br/&gt;RESPONSE: HA! and were supposed to be an arts and entertainment town, I would also say the “average american” has no idea who some of the weird bluegrass/folk/acoustic acts you have playing at SS are either but you still sell tickets don’t you? to a degree both of our businesses are somewhat niche in terms of music, the majority of your appeal musically is to the upper-middle class XPN listening yuppies while a place like ours tends to appeal more to their kids, while that is so we sell music for every type of listener, our record racks are meticulously divided by genre and artist, there is something for everyone, in your last paragraph you made the suggestion that maybe we weren’t inviting to people who’s musical preference differ from ours to which I say bullshit but if were getting into that, where is your overall average american appeal in terms of music in your venue? we’ve certainly had acts comparable to what you have at your place play at our store and I highly doubt you can say the same, &lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;If your products appealed to a wider audience, perhaps you would draw in more people.  The way that your business appears, from the exterior, is that it is geared towards young people only &lt;br/&gt;RESPONSE: I don’t see how it is your figuring this? Our record store is really nice compared to other places i’ve been, i’ve been to shops that were nothing but dirt floors and crates full of records, our store has beautiful hardwood floors a plaid mural painting and track lighting. Our older customers have often commented on how nice it is, in store music is always at a reasonable volume and usually pretty non-threatening as we are aware that that would be a turn off to some of our older customers. I don’t know what you would expect us to do? sure if we were a bright shiny FYE store we would probably get more adult traffic but if you were a Starbucks you’d be doing a little better to.&lt;br/&gt;therefore adults who do have expendable cash and good jobs are deterred from entering as they feel it is for young people only.  &lt;br/&gt;RESPONSE: Honestly I feel like our store and hipster home are probably the only stores now that attract those people at all but there aren’t enough of them to make the world go round. Hipster Home certainly more than us but still….we get these types of customers a lot of times they come in and buy things for their kids.&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;In Philadelphia you would find a much larger audience that is familiar with your products. &lt;br/&gt;RESPONSE: No shit.&lt;br/&gt; Out here in the burbs there are much fewer individuals who know and listen to the type of music you are offering, whether we are culturally deficient or not is not the point. &lt;br/&gt;RESPONSE: It is a great part of the point actually, i’m tired of hearing people champion this town as some sort of arts and entertainment type of place, Its one street with a bunch of bars and restaurants….this street would technically work anywhere. People have to eat and people love to drink its pretty recession proof…its a crappy cheeseburger that everyone’s trying to pass off as a filet&lt;br/&gt; Although Steel City is considered a “folk” venue, we actually have had a wide variety of genres perform at our venue, including punk and rap- to appeal to wider audiences.  Perhaps if you widened your appeal, you would widen your ability to sell to more people.&lt;br/&gt;RESPONSE: HA HA HA what rap acts have you had at Steel City, i’m gonna guess maybe G.Love or some shit like that, and I would be hard pressed to believe that punk acts ever played there, and if they did you sure as hell aren’t booking them anymore or they wouldn’t be calling me. Since our store has opened we have done Metal and Punk shows and acoustic nights, our opening night was a DJ spinning vintage Reggae and a couple of Hip Hop performances. Again people in glass houses should not be throwing stones.&lt;br/&gt;One of the reasons that Spedies failed is because he &lt;u&gt;refused to give up on his original idea,&lt;/u&gt; and refused to take the advice of numerous professionals that tried to help him.  His orginal idea was to market organic, healthy and freshly cooked spedie sandwiches, salads,and bison burgers to the public.  He didn’t believe in selling sodas (high profit margin) and did believe in traditional french fries (high profit margin).  He also failed to do a business plan.  Had he done a business plan, his research would have show him that no other “spedie” centered restaurant had ever successfully survived more than a year outside the area of Binghamton, New York.  How do I know? I know because I provided a free business consultation to him after he came to me complaining about his business.  I did the research.  Being from Binghamton, New York myself, I was one of the only ones that understood what a spedie sandwich was and that he was making them wrong.  In Binghamton, they par-cook the meat and keep it in a temperature controlled bin until the customer orders, they then finish the process so that it only take about 3 minutes to make a sandwich.  The average time it took him to make a sandwich was 22 minutes (I know, because part of my consulation process is to time the customer and food service).  My advice to him was to continue providing some organic, healthy sandwiches, but for survival to institute fresh made hamburgers (he could have had the best burgers in town), with regular fries, cheese fries, and crab fries.  Instead he invested in an air baked system that cost him twice as much as a regular french fryer and he could only use a specific type of fry provided by one company in the area that charged and arm and a leg.  I also gave him three specific marketing events to do to promote his business.  One was the Great American Spiedie Cookout- to occur on July 4th during the festivities on the street.  All he had to do was rent a large grill from Taylor Rental and give each customer a spedie from the grill with a coupon to come back for a sandwich from his shop.  His response was that he didn’t want to be there on the weekend and that he thought coupons made his business look cheap.  Not only could he promote his sandwiches by this idea, but promote his sales of ready to cook spedies for home barbecues.&lt;br/&gt;RESPONSE: I was a pretty regular patron of spiedies and I thought the food was excellent, but yes it had its share of problems, as you mentioned it did take forever at times to get food which I continue to see as the ultimate death of his business. But also the reason all of our businesses are suffering is due to lack of foot traffic in general to businesses that aren’t bars or full scale restaurants, to me the town seems like its nearing death in terms of retail and smaller more lunch type places like Spiedies was, I hope i’m wrong but as I said it doesn’t feel like it. The problem with Spiedies was not the quality of food but mostly the service, 22 minutes for a sandwich is unacceptable and I would often wait longer than that for a Bison burger. Your suggestion makes great sense and its a shame for Bryan that he didn’t take the oppurtunity to do things like that, still I don’t believe it would have saved his business, poor service and wait time killed his business as well as whats killing all of us aside from the bars and bigger restaurants….lack of traffic at times other than weekend evenings.&lt;br/&gt;I’m not going to tell you that Steel City Coffee House is the best business in the area.  I’m not even going to tell you that we are making loads of money, because we are not.  I’m also not going to tell you that we don’t have our own problems that I continually have to address.  Waht I will tell you is that when we  invested, we knew it would be quite some time before we made a profit.  We profited only two years of the last seven years and this year was not one of them, due to the economy.&lt;br/&gt;RESPONSE: So the question is then how long are you willing to wait? does it make sense to continue to keep a  pretty much failing business open based on those numbers? I don’t think so. For all intents and purposes Creep has done okay, we did this with our own money, no loans or credit lines or anything else like that. We have been in this barely a year and it is disheartening to hear that one of the longest standing most recognized businesses in Phoenixville has turned a profit only 2 of the 7 years its been open. I understand the idea of believing in something, specifically the idea of turning a once dilapidated town into something cool or “rising from the ashes” so to speak but lets be reasonable! The town has definetly improved greatly i’m sure since your store opened but what can you foresee happening that is really going to make people come in and spend lots of money? how do you think its really going to get much better than it is? our town has hit a ceiling I think and if its going to change I think we need to allow some corporate business, the rent overall needs to be lowered and more people need to come out and support all the businesses, not just the bars and restaurants. I until this happens I don’t think anything is going to change.&lt;br/&gt;What I can tell you is that we have established a nice community business that is interested in working with other businesses to make Phoenixville more viable with daytime traffic and nighttime traffic enough to support all types of businesses.  We need diverse businesses like Creep Records to bring diverse populations to town to add to our draw.  But, we also need businesses that want to work together.  Part of my goals in becoming the President of PABA were to help organize the businesses, target consumers, and create a feeling that Phoenixville is a destination.  With that idea, perhaps we can get some service industries, and daytime focused businesses (other than restaurants) to invest in Phoenixville to boost both daytime and nighttime traffic.  If we don’t work together, who is going to encourage others to invest along with us?  &lt;br/&gt;RESPONSE: Well i’m not encouraging anyone at the current time to open a business here or invest in anything having to do with Phoenixville. If anyone came to me about opening a business in Pville i’d tell them to wait 10 years and see where its at. I’m not opposed to working with people to make this town better but i’m a small part of even my own business, i’m a touring musician and that is how I make my living for a little over half the year. I find it hard to believe that I will find any common ground with most business owners here, this town denied a tattoo shop because of the “clientele”. People need to wake the fuck up, other than the people coming in on the weekends to go out to eat and drink, the clientele is the same as it ever was, they are here and they are not going anywhere why not try to make a couple dollars off of them though I can’t even say that I agree with the idea that tattoo’s bring in poor clientele, a lot of those people are my friends. We have currently partnered up with The Pickering Creek to do a punk rock night every tuesday with beer specials and we are happy to be working with them because we feel as though they are the only real business that understands what we want to do. I think Phoenixville is already as much of a “destination” as its ever gonna be or if it does on the off chance improve its going to  be a long time, I think such an amount of time that the business people who aren’t doing well now are not going to be able to wait it out. This town could definetly stand to have some diversity and I like to think that our store is a part of that but I feel like we are essentially just scapegoats for the greater good, maybe in 10 years things will be working and someone will open a record store that does well, although by then records may be obsolete so who knows. I think the idea of seeing service industries make there way into town is pretty far off as well, service business require people with needs, all anyone seems to need to do in Pville is eat and drink, I think thats about as service oriented as its going to get.&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;In conclusion, I am sorry that you (or whomever did that posting) don’t feel that Phoenixville is what you had hoped it would be and that we are culturally insufficient, crap hole small town, etc.  What I can tell you is that you haven’t made any effort to work with PABA on networking or promoting your business.  In fact, you have not even made an effort to communicate with one of the businesses that has offered you assistance in promotions, Steel City.  It isn’t a one way street, in order to take advantage of opportunities, you need to communicate with businesses around you and take advantage of your membership in PABA.  Simply complaining about the situation doesn’t make it any better.&lt;br/&gt;RESPONSE: I’m sorry to, I still like this little craphole town and I think it is a very normal thing to have a somewhat conflicted relationship with where you live or do business, on the living here side of things i’m not as terribly bothered by the bullshit, I drink at The Pickering, I eat at every restaurant on the block and in the afternoons when i’m around i’ll often stop in to Steel City with my dog and grab a Hall Street sandwich and a Coke. I would love to make an effort to work with PABA honestly as I mentioned because of work i’m not around a whole lot of the time but I will be in Pville all summer long, Arik handles a lot of the day to day things for the store and I can only really go by what he tells me and maybe there has been some miscommunication but that doesn’t change much. I would be happy to renew our PABA membership, let me know what I can do, I will certainly attend the meetings and share my opinions and ideas and make more of an effort to get involved, but do I think that it is going to save my business probably not. Were behind on bills and rent and all of that i’m guessing its only a matter of time before they ask us to leave, my theory though is that they don’t want us to because it will look bad for the town and if they do indeed ask us to leave someone will put a spin on about how we “were doing bad business” of course, it won’t be because the rent is outrageous the fact that people only really inhabit the street about 8 hours out of the week. I thank you for writing and letting me know about oppurtunities that I didn’t neccessarily know were available to us and for taking time out of your day to read my previous entry. I really do hope that things overall will improve but i’m hesitant to full on believe that. Also I realize after re-reading my previous post that I was maybe a little hard on everything, it was just an angry day overall and I suppose I took some of that in my post but then again I feel as though you zeroed in on only a small amount of what I really had to say in my post so i’d say its pretty even. Best of luck to you and everyone else trying to make it work&lt;br/&gt;Tyler G. PurselMusician/Record Store Co-Owner&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;Original Post:I’m a part owner in Creep Industries, the record store at 239 Bridge Street. despite my efforts to inject some sort of musical culture into the small town of Phoenixville, PA the kids are mostly horrible excuses for human beings, while the entire town fronts like it wants to be some sort of “Arts and Entertainment” mecca (Mr. Demutis words not mine) what it has really turned into is nothing more than another craph0le small town with one street filled with nothing but fratboy bars inhabited by mostly overly conservative morons. Being a business owner in this town is even more frustrating and backwards, I along with my business partners were pretty much straight up lied to about the kind of foot traffic our store would recieve, yet our landlord is consistently telling us how much money our store “should be making”. Right now the rent for our small store in Phoenixville is $1400 a month plus bills, we recently came to find out that we can rent a store front of equal size in an up and coming area of Philadelphia for half the price, i’d love to do nothing more than close up shop and move everything down there but unfortunately that would probably cost a lot of money so its not really an option at the moment, Our business is doing okay but am I proud and happy Phoenixville business owner? no I find myself constantly pi$$ed off and aggravated with this town, rent is to high for almost all the business spaces and foot traffic during anytime other than dumb first fridays and whatever odd ball festivals they decide to throw is extremely minimal, a good weekday is getting 3 customers in the store, i’m sure some people will try and turn this around on me and say that maybe were not doing good business but thats bulls***, I would be willing to say ANY business in Phoenixville that claims to be thriving right now (Other than the bars) is straight up lying. Cheese! was a great shop that I frequented and would almost always have to wait for service because they were actually in the earlier days busier, they closed to my knowledge because the overhead of the place was to high, Speedies had really good food but it was hardly what I would call speedy nor was it affordable for what it was, despite this fact I ate there a lot because the burgers were so good but never once was Brian the least bit personable and on top of that it would sometimes take 30 mins to get a burger? what the he** man. Tyler James I always thought of as the least evil of all the bars but even that place sucked, drinks were expensive and I recall one night when one of the bartenders skipped all my songs on the jukebox because she didn’t feel like hearing “that punk stuff” (she did not say stuff I cannot get this comment in with the word she actually said, how wonderfully conservative) despite the fact that I was in the bar all night drinking chimay and buying drinks for my friends, whatever, if you only want people to listen to nickelback and whatever other red state rock degenerate aholes listen to don’t have an internet jukebox, don’t give me the option to play something that your just going to skip anyway. I don’t think the town is closing but I can tell you as a business owner that things do not look good and its probably not going to get much better, I don’t subscribe to the weird backwards commradery that all the other business owners seem to have i’m trying to be honest about the situation for people who want to know the deal about whats going on. One of the owners of Wolfgang books bailed out because he just couldn’t see being able to make it work (great guys, great shop one of the only ones who were nice and supportive of our shop early on.) and thats dissapointing considering how long they have been there, most of the businesses are for sale but people don’t like you to know that and its not rumor, you can buy Hipster Home on Amazon or overstock for like 1.5 million (yeah right) as well as a few of the restaurants, while people may not be neccesarily closing they are definetly trying to get out before it gets much worse and thats a fact.I feared coming here and sharing my opinions because I felt like my harsh opinions would make people maybe not want to shop in my store but then again almost all of our consistent business is from out of town clients or a tight knit handful of kids that feel the same way we do about everything, so I don’t really care the townspeople have been very unsupportive for the most part in terms of coming in and shopping, but they are always up our a$$ about paying an obnoxious amount of money to advertise in the first friday flyer or whatever or to put up their flyers for some dumb festival. The only people who I think are doing it the right way right now are Sean and Jeff at The Pickering Creek, Rocky at the Kilt Shop, Fiber Salon and the people own the Bridgeside Deli (far better than any eats on bridge) there may be a few others but these are the ones I believe in, These guys have a great business model and yet are still open minded and smart as hell which is more than I can say for most of the business owners i’ve come in to contact with. And while were at it how bout letting a little corporate business work its way in, while I do appreciate phoenixvilles intent to keep it pretty independent down on bridge street there is just no foot traffic to support the retail businesses, no real retail related draw of any kind people would rather go to KOP, throw in a gap maybe a chipotle and a cold stone creamery and watch business boom, maybe not but at this point its worth a shot, If I could and money wasn’t an issue our store would already be set up and running happily in Northern Liberties. Next time I will be sure to inspect the area i do business in a little more carefully. I’ve met a lot of really great people here but this town suffers from inflated ego, home prices and an unwarranted sense of entitlement, This is NOT Philadelphia nor is it really a Philadelphia suburb. It is what it is and maybe when it starts realizing that things will begin to pick up, If i’m still living here i’ll welcome that change with open arms but more than likely, I won’t be here. “&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/96997842</link><guid>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/96997842</guid><pubDate>Thu, 16 Apr 2009 20:19:56 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>True Love Will Find You In The End</title><description>&lt;p&gt;It’s the first date of the Gym Class Heroes college tour in Ohio, the show went pretty well and it felt good to play a real full set again in front of a bunch of wild ass kids. I worked on some art today which I will try to post up soon. Our downtime has been filled with mostly long bouts of watching adult swim cartoons, drinking and listening to Daniel Johnston. I haven’t been sleeping much.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Very recently someone close to me passed away in a car accident at far to young an age and it saddens me greatly not to be around home to be with her family (Who always have been like family to me) to offer my condolences and support, though i’m not sure what I could say that would make anyone feel any better, i just wish I could be there. I find nothing sadder then when bad things happen to good people. I don’t think I have fully grasped the reality of the situation and i’m hoping that maybe by writing about it I will be able to properly cope. There is so much I want to say and do but I do not wish to mention names or anything of that sort out of respect to the family and their privacy during this hard time. The world is a twisted place and I hate to know that people I greatly care for are suffering. I have often as of late questioned a lot of the decisions I have made in my life, I certainly have my fair share of social issuses and i’ve lost touch with a lot of people over time and I plan to remedy this situation in the coming months. I guess I’ll just leave it at saying treasure the people your close to whether it be friends or family or whoever and do your best to set aside whatever differences or grievances you may have with them. To the family: i’m greatly sorry for your loss and I hope that in time you can heal I also want to say thank you for supporting me in realizing my dream and helping me out a great deal at a time in my life when I needed help and overall for being great friends and excellent people, I don’t think I ever really said thank you so…thank you, I apologize for not making more of an effort to be around when i’m home and I certainly hope to see more of you, R.I.P  B you will be missed and in my thoughts and the thoughts of many for eternity.&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;I came upon a doctor who appeared in quite poor health. I said “there is nothing that I can do for you that you can’t do &lt;br/&gt;for yourself.” He said “Oh yes you can. Just hold my hand. I think that would &lt;br/&gt;help.” So I sat with him a while and then I asked him how he felt. He said, “I &lt;br/&gt;think I’m cured. In fact, I’m sure. Thank you stranger, for your &lt;br/&gt;therapeutic smile.” &lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;So that is how I learned the lesson that everyone is alone. And your eyes must &lt;br/&gt;do some raining if you are ever going to grow. But when crying don’t help and &lt;br/&gt;you can’t compose yourself. It is best to compose a poem, an honest verse of longing or a simple song of hope. That is why I’m singing… Baby don’t worry cause now I &lt;br/&gt;got your back. And every time you feel like crying, I’m gonna try and make you laugh. And if I can’t, if it just hurts too bad, then we will wait for it to pass and I will keep you company through those days so long and black. And we’ll just keep working on the problem we know we’ll never solve of Love’s uneven remainder, our lives are fractions of a whole. But if the world could remain within a frame like a painting on a wall. Then I think we would see the beauty then. We would stand staring in awe at our still lives posed like a bowl of oranges, like a story told by the fault lines and the soil.&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/96046784</link><guid>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/96046784</guid><pubDate>Tue, 14 Apr 2009 05:29:16 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>PA people come on out!</title><description>&lt;img src="http://5.media.tumblr.com/3zLuFCdUJm9vfjefuFM5WTGoo1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;PA people come on out!&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/96036197</link><guid>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/96036197</guid><pubDate>Tue, 14 Apr 2009 04:23:19 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>I just finished reading Phil Spector’s biography by Mark...</title><description>&lt;img src="http://23.media.tumblr.com/3zLuFCdUJm8o9l5urCaoe6Gso1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;I just finished reading Phil Spector’s biography by Mark Ribowsky, excellent book about one of the most sick, fucked up, cold, evil, manipulative, talented motherfuckers in the game. I think this should be required reading for anyone going to school for music business related subjects.&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/95725325</link><guid>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/95725325</guid><pubDate>Mon, 13 Apr 2009 08:14:58 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>Lots More Lyrics</title><description>&lt;p&gt;Cold black island well you&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;hardly know me but&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;i’m selling ships but no one&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;knows where they’re going and&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;you’ve got your failures and &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;I’ve got my hopes and we&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;capsize together as we&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;wave towards the coast&lt;/p&gt;

&lt;p&gt;as we drift away &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;into the coldest waves&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;we’ve seen better days&lt;/p&gt;

&lt;p&gt;I see broken windows and lonely hearts and theres&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;no telling what I lost the shell of a man with no&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;plans for after no looking ahead of this&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;beatdown and broken and takin a piss &lt;/p&gt;

&lt;p&gt;we’ll drift away &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;into the coldest waves&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;we’ve seen better days&lt;/p&gt;


&lt;p&gt;Killer Bees&lt;/p&gt;

&lt;p&gt;If I were to stand around and shout it out&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;with knives in hand you’d have no doubts and or regrets&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;lets please engage in casual sex to pass the time&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;before I step to surely over the line&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;but theres a problem here or so it seems&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;cuz even when its silent out I hear your screams&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;waking the neighbors like a windy breeze or new disesase&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;but I guess thats just her way of saying please&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;but she don’t have all the answers&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;she’s just a thoughtless romancer&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;she’s got a bad case of cancer of the heart&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;And with the sharpest glance you made it clear&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;i’ll turn my back and walk away for 40 years&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;but time can turn to happiness from empty tears&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;and medicate a future filled with fears&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;but I won’t take the pill to get me right&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;I sit awake between the palest moon and brightest light&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;You know I wear my dancing shoes behind my eyes&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;she’s always searching for alibis&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;but she don’t have all the answers&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;she’s just a thoughtless romancer&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;she’s got a bad case of cancer of the heart&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;so won’t you sting me like a killer bee&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;the very notion of it all makes me want to believe in &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;a great mystery or a neverending dream&lt;/p&gt;



&lt;p&gt;that girl was born in a smoke stack&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;with hay bails for her hair and a frail body&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;her heart was made from a stale air&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;that I could waste inside a thoughtless bar&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;where cheap talk over beer&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;could outlive all my cares&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;and how the empty dreams&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;seemed to fill her weary head&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;because sleeping was nothing&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;but something to do when your dead&lt;/p&gt;

&lt;p&gt;and all the songs you write and try so hard to sing&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;and while the pronouns they may change &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;they all mean the same thing&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;mean the same thing&lt;/p&gt;

&lt;p&gt;this year has been everlasting&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;i’m not grasping the point of your fucked up life&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;you smashed my world on the concrete&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;like a promise you could never keep&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;and although it seems as if theres a shred of decency &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;well thats fucked up too&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;before it was all just me but now somehow its me and you&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;because lifes just a test of the shit we can be put through&lt;/p&gt;

&lt;p&gt;and all the songs you write and try so hard to sing&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;and while the pronouns they may change &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;they all mean the same thing&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;mean the same thing&lt;/p&gt;

&lt;p&gt;my futures lost but I can live without it&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;and what it cost  I can’t grieve about it&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/95721215</link><guid>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/95721215</guid><pubDate>Mon, 13 Apr 2009 07:52:09 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>This is a new tune I wrote after a particularly bad day, though...</title><description>&lt;embed type="application/x-shockwave-flash" src="http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/swf/audio_player.swf?audio_file=http://www.tumblr.com/audio_file/95720467/3zLuFCdUJm8n9z1fFdmlUF3r&amp;color=FFFFFF" height="27" width="207" quality="best"&gt;&lt;/embed&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;This is a new tune I wrote after a particularly bad day, though I can’t say for sure whether thats reflected in the tune or not. enjoy! its just a demo the vocals are a little rough and there is a lot of background bus noise.&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/95720467</link><guid>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/95720467</guid><pubDate>Mon, 13 Apr 2009 07:47:00 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>This ones called “Sad Days Are Numbered”</title><description>&lt;img src="http://18.media.tumblr.com/3zLuFCdUJm8n3gbxfr3PFmSDo1_400.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;This ones called “Sad Days Are Numbered”&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/95719816</link><guid>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/95719816</guid><pubDate>Mon, 13 Apr 2009 07:42:13 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>This ones called “Colony Of Critterbeings”</title><description>&lt;img src="http://11.media.tumblr.com/3zLuFCdUJm8n2dfmE1TQgg7zo1_400.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;This ones called “Colony Of Critterbeings”&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/95719689</link><guid>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/95719689</guid><pubDate>Mon, 13 Apr 2009 07:41:22 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>Photo</title><description>&lt;img src="http://23.media.tumblr.com/3zLuFCdUJm8mx40b5F4oP2tVo1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;</description><link>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/95719107</link><guid>http://killingyourselftolive.tumblr.com/post/95719107</guid><pubDate>Mon, 13 Apr 2009 07:37:17 -0400</pubDate></item></channel></rss>
